It’s just me.

Haaah…finally…relieved of all the struggles…broke off today…that’s right…chinese ‘O’ level today…comprehension was a little tough…other than that…an OK paper…at least all my hard work in memorising the Ci Yu paid off…the first 10 marks confirmed…haiyo…during the revision days…keep thinking of slacking…now slacking…keep thinking of studying…so nothing better to do than to chat whole day long…anyway…today would mean I do not need to face with chinese for the rest of the year le…YEAH!!!…so grateful that this day has come by…

My love…this few days…very devoted to you you know…been trying extremely hard to understand you…to love you as you love me…to grasp your soul…hai…guess this relationship won’t last…
Tomorrow chinese ‘O’ level le…so fast…so nervous…come on…wish me luck…

Asked my sister yesterday to give me Ting Sie…she almost diedED…at around two hundred odd words already dozed off…haha…heard Dr Mel Gill over the radio again…this time managed to catch one of his many sentences…quite ineresting…”wake up tomorrow morning and be late for work…you are human beings not human doings”…our life is not about working everyday…completing tasks and all…well it’s about a searching for a meaning…doing things that we’re really fond of I guess…but how many of us can acually do that…you try to be late for work and see what you’ll get…you try to be late for school and see what you gonna get…you ain’t going to discuss philosophy with your teacers or superiors are you?…somtimes, we’re forced to become human doings…no options…

Haha…took the class photo…being a monitor…got to go find Mr Tan…went to staff room…not there…went to classroom block…thought a malay teacher was him…nearly went into his class…so embarrassing!…all ppossible places searched…except the HOD room…don’t know why so blurr…hai…and he happened to be there…good thing is…I’m not the only one…xing qi (monitress) also…hehe…4/6…the last class that I’ll be in…I would say…the liveliest…the most cultured…the smartest…mm…excellent teachers…it’s sure to take up quite a portion in my “memory space”…
…after recess got Bio practical…haiyo…still so scared of the bunsen burner…hands literally shook while handling the test tube in the hot water bath…didn’t even dare to light the bunsen burner…haha…

Well the health fair’s not too bad after all…got to see my P6 form teacher…Miss Yeap…haha…she hasn’t changed a little…you know…she’s the most loving, most caring…whatever…she’s a good teacher…you’ll never know how much I missed the days in her class…Kian Eng hor?…well you can tell by the response of her ex students in PRCS who kept engaging in conversations with her…haha…anyway…so fortunate to receive blessings from her before the MT ‘O’ levels…
…watched the documentary “Naughty by Nature”…haha…the funny side of wild life…didn’t really know that females ferrent will die of hormone poisoning if they do not have sex when they are in breeding conditions…a lioness…so desperate…make love every 15 mins…

Haiyoh…what stupid sandwich making…who cares about healthy eating when Chinese ‘O’ level’s just one week away…what disastrous effects this has caused…sandwich making…means wasting 3 hours of your life away…means wasting a session of intensive chinese training…means the MT teachers would have to rush on their schedules…means untidying your classroom…means…according to kian eng…bringing much trouble to the councillors…means blah blah blah…see?…yah sandwich…WHAT A WITCH IT IS!!!…the school should be sensible enough to hold the health fair sometime after MT ‘O’s or earlier in the year right…what healthy living’s there to talk about if we can’t get proper future education…proper job…proper pay…proper living…what a waste of time this is…

Wao…I mean Criss Angel…he’s just incredible…just watched his “supernatural”…then got utterly shocked by those out-of-the-world acts…to think he actually jumped into a puddle of water on the road and literally jumped “INTO” it you know…I think this fellow ah…really is what chinese call magician…MO SHU SHI!…practitioner of the dark arts…it’s just unbelievable…

Had a bad start today…woke up at 11.30am…wasted a good half day sleeping…then went on to chinese stuff…the dunman paper was tough…passage of both comprehensions two pages each leh…Siao liao!…if it had been the actual ‘O’ level paper…wah…a dozen frozen Tou Fu also not enough!…hai…don’t know what’s wrong with me today…been in a lousy mood…over all…a bad bad day…sigh…

(1) Be Consistent in All Situations

(2) Stay Resilient in the Face of Adversity

(3) Maintain High Levels of Accountability to Self and Others

(4) Strive for a Continued State of High Performance

(above extracted from Mr Tan’s blog)
This I think are really good 4 points to reflect upon and to ponder about…whether I’d done them…well I’ve certainly not…saying’s always easy…doing’s (you should know)…but when that time approach…do we really do as we said…often not…the false perception of “there’s still time for this…for that” often end us up in rushed situations…this is precisely what I always do…in fact all the time…
…maintaining…I would very much believe…is the most difficult to achieve…when you’re at the top…you get stressed up in trying to score the same grade the next time round…or in worrying that some others might beat you in the next test…just about everything…then in some cases you drop…hai…this physcological stuff just wouldn’t go…still forcing to accept the fact that the opponent is myself and only myself…

Got back five papers…well not so bad…at least A1 for bio and physics loh…but then SS and Geog ah…hai…combined humanities B4 leh…E Maths…more disappointing…A2…have always maintained A1 all these years…actually found a mis- addition of one mark…but then thought again…one mark’s gonna make no difference in my grade…so didn’t approach a teacher…today also gotten back english paper 2…horrendous, sad to say…just made it…
…today…a visit by a chinese teacher from duman secondary…gave us a talk on ways to tackle the exam ahead…interesting…also disappoined at the pupils’ attitude…here’s a visitor…yet still displayed their usual bad behaviour…felt so ashamed…so that’s about it for today…signing off…