It’s just me.

I guess it’s time to realise, that all that I’ve been thinking about is no longer a fantasy, and that, I’ve come to be fond of you. Gosh can’t believe I told the whole class, okay at least to half of it, that you’re my motivational drive. I know it sounds ridiculous cos, how’s that possible when I haven’t really lay my eyes on you for once? Well, as ridiculous as it can get, it just happened to be so. That’s why, when you made that remark, it affected me so so so much. I know things can’t be rushed. So all I asked was to become your friend.. LITERALLY. But you don’t seem interested =(.. haiz deeply saddened. Just what’s you reason?.. if it’s because you feel unsafe about me, I really don’t know how I could do to make you feel any safer. Give me a chance, will you? Just wana let you know, that I won’t give up on you…
It’s really hard to keep this in my soul, it’s no longer possible. So I decided to dedicate a second entry to you. I’ve made my words damn vague, but if you still managed to realise that I’m talking about you, erm… …

Perhaps you’ll never read this, or perhaps you’ll never know I’m talking about you.. I was really affected by your reply. I’d wished to probe, but as much as I was tempted to I didn’t cos I knew you won’t want me to. Is it all about trust?… or is it otherwise… Just what’s holding you back? These are very disturbing questions that haunt my daily life since you gave that reply, once again. It’s all because of you that I couldn’t concentrate well in all that I do. And I’ll continue to be in this pathetic state until you tell me why. I chose the hard way out because I didn’t want to make you feel uncomfortable. This is a choice I’ve made and yeah I’m responsible for it.. congrats..

Interesting school day today =D Hahaz as long as tutorials and lectures are replaced we can pretty much consider whatever’s in place of it to be interesting yah?.. lolz. Leadership camp was in for us this time round.. “I know. I can. I will,” as its theme goes. One thing common among all the camps’ that they’re always boring.. or at least at the beginning. And one thing special about this one here is you get the same remark for whatever you do or say, “Great, you’re responsible for it. Congratulations”. Hahaz but till now i still can’t figure out what it means exactly.. sounds so chim.. And our class hunk Sheng Li got approached by a girl when we were doing the hands shake. LOLZ.. and he rejected her so abruptly.. haiyohz.. It might have felt painful for her, disgusted for him, but it definitely was a good laugh for those watching XD Oh and we sure have got a damn great facilitator lah!!.. All the group sharings turned into gossip and jokes session.. hahaz so kewl!!

We these poor little helpless brids were enclosed in the cage for 8 hours before we’re freed. Then I was to meet the 4/6 guys and Mr Tan for dinner to do some catching up on their new chapter of life!! Glad to know all of them are doing well ^_^ and all were abck to their old childish self when the bitches met.. hahaz. Not forgetting about the excellent Thai dishes served of course. But I thought the people we were eating with were more important than the food itself.. yah? Ending off the entry with a big big thanks to Mr Tan for organising this for us and.. above all, for your treat this evening =D

What’s the moral of the story? Eat bananas and gulp down a can of red bull before your 2.4km run and it shall do miracles like a genie =D That’s exactly what I did and I amazingly ran 1.5 mins faster than usual, pushing my all time E to a high c with just 6 seconds from a B *grr* Could still recall how Justin’s jaw dropped when he heard that.. hahaz. Then there was this girl who ran beside me for about 4 laps. OKie we’re complete strangers to each other. It sure would’ve seemed rather puzzling to those watching the run. I felt really awkward too running with her by my side.. But halfway through she broke down, due to flu I think. Hope she’s well now..

YAY.. next week’s independent week! Meaning no tutorials andlectures forthe whole week.. wahaha. Must be the envy of many =Pp It’s two days of leadership camp and another two of independent learning. Saying it’s independent learning, it isn’t at all when practically every subject is giving you assignments to complete before the end of the following week.. plus tests coming up on the first week of the June holidays. HEad’s really severely jammed now that instructions after instructions pour in like nobody’s business.. don’t know where to start executing them.. XD

Deicided that I should and (as if) have the right to excuse myself from chess club TRAINING (or so it’s called by those nerds in there) today. Went back to the err.. cage? LoLX.. hahaz KKx no offence. Was back at PRCS to collect my O level cert. Pillai CMI so had to make a lonely journey. It really feels like being a big shot when I was approaching its gates mann.. maybe it’s because those ‘bananas’ with their bottom half stained with iodine looked really small and inferior compared with a tall and big guy in an outstanding brown among the yellow with his hair spiked.. hahaz.. no relations to this entry but just wanna say I’m really proud to be an NYJCian!! =D That lady staff who passed me my cert was like “wah so many As ah..”. I was like.. excuse me.. Can’t really blame her though.. when I could be considered the hybrid in the ‘cage’.
Found myself facing a dull and really unfamiliar side of PRCS this afternoon. No idea why.. just felt that way. Perhaps it’s those many unfamiliar faces that popped up all of a sudden.. or maybe it’s that those usual cliques of mine just aren’t there anymore. Hope Teacher’s Day will not be like that..

First off, had Physics SPA today.. and its a thumbs up!! all right!! Heng ah.. at least i get to recover quite a fair bit of the old trauma that still haunts.. Okie let’s see. Hmm.. perfect graph drawing.. perfect tabulations.. perfect workings.. correct methods. Wow.. perfection? wahaha.. really hope so..

And it was the much feared NAPFA at the end of the day. Cos of the wet conditions we had to have all the 5- items indoors. YES, including shuttle run, the most spastic thing the PE department could’ve ever done. Starting with shuttle run. Despite the vigorous cheering from my CT mates.. haiz much to their disappointment, I got a pathertic 10.5 seconds after 2 tries. ALL BECAUSE OF THE FLOOR LAH.. so slippery.. Hai me keep losing grip on the ground. Up next is pull ups. It’s is just simply, ultimately incredible when 14 out of 15 guys in your class could pull their heads through that horizontal bar more than 5 times and you could do not even once. It’s the most embarrassing thing that could happen to a boy boy especially with ger gers around who stare at you while you try very hard to keep your cool.. Lolz. Okie here’s the real thing. It wasn’t without much amusement that I actually reached for 52 cm in the sit n reach segment. I’m still trying to figure out just how miraculously I accomplished this wonder. Hahaz and the teacher in charge for this item is really a role model of what the other not-so-good PE teachers (meaning all) should follow.. “You want to try again? just a few cms more you know?..”.. And when that particular he had tried his best..”push an mm more you get your A already!!” so that he did so with a slight jerk of his arm and there he goes his 5 points. You can’t really deny the fact that she’s the kewl-est PE teacher you can find mann..

Alright great.. screwed up my first SPA. Just WTF’s going on.. got a negative value for x and I still couldn’t come up with the right answer with the rest of the 35 minutes. I mean.. I’d been doing just fine with skill C all the while.. now that bloody shit just come slapping at my face all because of that bastardly careless mistake that managed to get it’s way through. I’m already loaded enough with all the tests and the ‘gorgeous’ results that come along.. not even to mention assignments. And there’s more to come.. with 3 tests tomorrow *oh lord*.. as if the recent trauma isn’t enough to put my sane mind off. Can’t things just stop for a moment and let me catch a breath.. okie or should I say.. “time, you’re moving on too fast don’t you need a break?”.. The June holidays comes just right and I promise I’ll be rEbOrN after the mid year vacation. In the mean time.. it’s another SPA session tomorrow. Hope nothing silly happens again.

From Mr Loke-

Parents: So what have you been doing this whole week?
We: Tests
Mr Loke: And what have you learnt?
We: Tests

That’s the cruel reality of JC life. Monday- had a maths test no one seems to be able to finish. Thursday- a physics that’s deemed brutal in it’s massacre.. on my brain cells. Not forgeting chinese paper 2 later in the day.. goner? (again??)..haiz..
And according to Mrs Tay, more are coming our way.. like how a a fat, monstrous, ugly-looking man with stinky breath, maggots-filled mouth, over grown nostril hair would croach over a baby (that’s me),casting his all too huge shadow on this poor little creature who’d be crying for mummy…..you think so? hopefully it’s fiction..

Perhaps a glorious and historical moment for 05S6E that’s worth noting.. we’ve done ourselves proud with the largest piece of fabric ever to be sewed on the Fabric Of Nanyang =D Another proud note is that, it’s got the center position!! hahaz. It’s also the most eye catching.. with a drawing block stuck within 16 fabric pieces.. lolZ.. we certainly rocks! Oh and there’s “The One” talentime contest.. Marcus got in *cheers!!* what i heard of the semi final’s that there was spontaneous applause at the end of his performance.. haiz.. can’t believe I missed his duet for a plate of chicken rice. But nevermind!! He got into the finals anyway.. will and must catch him then for we did our part in getting him into the finals by having our hands on a whole lot of voting slips..*smirkz* Come to think of it, 05S6E’s quite a good mix of talents. There’re people who’s good in soccer, basketball, badminton, arts, slacking, joking etc etc.. and of course Tian Cai, who’s good in almost every subject. When you combine these people together..it’s just phenomenal..

While other PW tutors have divided their repespective classes into groups last week, our fellow Mr Seah decided to do only it today, and.. with a special kind of approach *sneakers* as always. “There’re 2 decks here. Guys this side and girls that side.. pick one card each” And I got 2 of spades. Hahaz, supposedly the most powerful card one can hold in the game of ‘Big Two’. So quite obviously, my group consists of all the 2s, and including a joker.. as in.. ‘joker’. Really hope my idea gets chosen to be done on. But then, I ain’t confident if it will be feasible.. after all the crappngs in the PI..

NY got us all to do a DISC personality evaluation thingy. Somewhat interesting.. and.. as much as I’m concern, it speaks nothing but the truth ^_^ Gd heavens my money isn’t wasted.. hahaz. Scoring especially high for S and C, I found out that I’m a ‘peacemaker’ too =) *since when..*

I want to go see ‘Larger Than Life’!! But it’s so ex.. haiz.. maybe I should just buy the album instead..

05S6E went Mc Donalds again last wednesday.. “Big Mac hai mei you hao(along with hand action)” hahz XD Seems to be becoming part of our class’ timetable- wed 1240-1430 “MaC”- how about that huh? And the chilli+ice reaction had back-fired this time. Xuan Sheng got his taste of hot hands mann.. hahaz.

Went for the OCIP briefing. NY’s going Sri Lanka this June. Ironically, the talk actually made me decide not to go.. hahz. Not because of the poor conditions there.. but the thought of having to spend a 1 hour revising my subjects for the mid yr exams under poor lightings with flying draculas etc etc etc makes me shudder. So I thought I would join the 2nd one at the end of the year. Really can’t imagine working my hands on hammer and nails while thinking through formulae and theories.. *gosh* how dangerous it can be..

Okie.. 4-5 lecture tests coming my way over the next 2 weeks.. fancy sitting for a physics test without an idea what the hell’s going on for ‘forces’.. that’s kewl. Haiz.. cham cham.. think must go find Tian Cai le..