It’s just me.

And, it’s over!! Ahaz. Been hoping for this day to come since weeks go. Besides having completed the Mid Yrs I’ve also recovered from the terrible flu + cough + fever.. or maybe, on the verge of. This is what people call shuang xi lin men.. yah? =D I really hope to see a third xi, after getting back those marked scripts…

Let’s start with Maths. First paper in the morning yesterday. Overall huhh, should do rather fine. Isn’t as tough as I expected. Or maybe it’s because of god’s blessings (from Mr Loke)? Hahz. Unfortunately I kind of screwed up my time management after the first hour. Didn’t expect to have a surprise at the last page. In the end I’d to leave the whole of AP&GP question blank worth a costly 17 marks. But nevermind, at least I learnt a lesson =) Economics wasn’t that bad too, just that I didn’t have time to finish the MCQs. Luckily there wasn’t any DRQs. It would have been terrible since it’s only a two-hour paper. But I thought it’s quite stupid of the Econs depratment to set such a short paper. I mean the paper is incomplete without all three sections…

Then I got home, fell real real sick. Didn’t manage to do much that evening. Practically slept through the rest of the day. Should consider myself having a great deal of improvement in Physics *wahaha* Cos I was able to get through it, not without some blanks of course. Otherwise, I’m really satisfied with my progress, though there’s this a lot for me to work on. It’s just a matter of time yah?

It’s been quite some time since we ’saw’ each other. Really keen to know how life’s been for you in your own kind of world. Hope you’re doing just fine. Perhaps you’re too caught up with your revisions, so I shouldn’t be making my thoughts wander. I hope it’s not otherwise…
Anyways, tomorrow will be your last paper. Whatever that is, Jia You okie? =)

Down with flu.. hahz. Why am I so lucky huh. Of that many days in the month in June I’ve got to fall sick on the 26th, which coincidentally is the eve of the Mid Yrs. Dunno.. might well be a curse from stubborn june-born babies. Okie, looks like my hope of gettng to see you is dashed.. again =X Maybe you could tell me, it isn’t? It’s still not too late you know. Or maybe, 鱼饼 can give a little help here? I’ll be really grateful *nodds*..

Chinese papers were scheduled last friday. I guess it doesn’t have to be friday the 13th to be bad, all fridays are. Needless to say, IT was disastrous! How? Just have to blame on my illiteracy in Chinese. Hmm.. it’s not as if I’m that great in english yah? mind you. Next came GP this morning. Dare not comment too. Followed by Chemistry. The effect of the pills had subsided right at the start of the paper, so what do you think? Felt better later on, that is, only after eavesdropping on some of the comments from theee ‘genereal public’. Yeah, the paper was quite tough, as many complained. What seemed to be a definite checkmate was that I’d forgotten to cover a very important topic! That’s ideal gases. Holy gracious *faints* Thought NYJC hasn’t taught that yet when they had, in the first three months. So I happily skipped that during my revision. Estimating a loss of 12 marks.. ideal gases alone! Maths and Econs await my sickly soul tomorrow, and physics the day after. Hmm.. we shall see. Hopefully the end product wouldn’t be a dead piece of meat =D

Will be having chinese paper 1 and 2 tomorrow. Gosh, it sure spells trouble. Just don’t know what’s happening to my ‘Piao zhun hua yu’. It’s getting really bad these days, even verbally (it’s not as if my english is any better). AO level chinese oral’s here already, early next month =X Better speak chinese, write chinese, see chinese, think chinese from now.

Hmm.. didn’t catch that song dedication for you yesterday. I don’t think you did too.. yeah? What a lousy service they offer hor..hmph. Just because they’ve got this one additional digit to their FM doesn’t mean they’re special or better okie people. Don’t be deceived. Should’ve just spent 30cents and get it up on yes 93.3. Cos, there’s something I wanted to say to you other than a birthday greeting you know.. now that you’ve missed it, how ne?..=(

Done with econs. Now left 2 more subjects to go =D Shall execute maths tomorrow *evil grinz* I’d better go get my knives sharpened. It’s supposedly my forte so shouldn’t be a problem.. hahz hopefully. Watched sea biscuit on Starhub preview channel yesterday night. Learned never just a movie by it’s preview. Thought sea biscuit was boring just as any other so didn’t bother to catch it on the plane a few years back. and I realised I was damn wrong when strangely enough I was pulled away from the tempts of the internet for the TV. It’s a pretty inspirational film.. yah. Do catch it if you haven’t.

Hmm, okay so that shocking news was all but a joke. Ha.. ha.. ha.. funny huh? Fancy playing such tricks on me. You know this friend of hers got me so distracted I can’t even concentrated on my revision for the past few days. You’re going to pay for it if anything bad happens. Hmm but on another thought, I’ve learned to cherish her for who she is even more. So perhaps it isn’t exactly a bad thing after all.
Anyway it’s 3 days more to hearing my message for you on air! I’ll remind you to tune in yah? Don’t worry =D

Glad that I’m finally done with my physics revision *grinz* Hahz.. one down, three more to go =). This year’s June holiday is the most pathetic of all in the last 14 years of education. The whole month’s dedicated to study, study and study. That’s not the end. Air Supply’s gonna be here in a little more than a week’s time and I can’t go rock at their concerts because I’m having a paper the day after!! PLUS I just got a special rate to PCK’s musical at $12 (for any category of seats) from NKF and too I can’t go!! =X WTH..

Okie.. I’m still overwhelmed by the fact this aternoon..

ooo gosh.. had the worse shock in my life just a few moments ago. As from dictionary.com, “shocked, spooked, startled, stunned, suspicious” and at the same time.. “distressed, disturbed.” But just how’s that possible!?!? I still can’t believe what I’d seen. And I’ll not, until I hear it personally from her cos it’s just so impossible..

Dreadful, dreadful. Hahz.. guess it isn’t really very wise to try to go along a tight schedule yah? With exactly 9 days of revision for 3 more A subjects before the start of Mid Years, meaning 3 days each for some catching up, TYS etc etc. Well, that’s excluding leisure times like this which take up most of the night, and bits and pieces of the afternoon too. So in conclusion, it isnt exactly three days each. Meaning I’d be struggling =X. But(!), thinking of the 6 awesome days of holidays after the papers, it certainly make some sense to sacrifice for such a good bargain =D

Think I should stop mentioning this, now that I kind of sensed you’ve read these stuff and you’re becoming very cautious. Just wanna say, don’t. Okie? I don’t really wish for anything more than an established friendship right now.. really.. don’t think too much alright? =)

Kind of losing my senses recently. Woke up last sunday to think it’s Father’s Day. I was just so worried about not having gotten my Dad a gift the day before.. hah, what a fool. Adding on to that, I completely forgot about the PW meeting this morning till Xuan Sheng msg-ed me. Hmm.. it was 12.30am this morning when I realised I’d proved myself a fool once again. Rejoice!! With two weeks left to the mid years/ block test/ summer test..stressed!!..?? Being hrown into a vicious cycle of standard activities now that I’ve no life, at least for now. Yeah.. it’s nothing but subject texts and TYS, goodness sake. Despite the long hours (and long breaks too) devoted to revision I did little. For I was and am still constantly preoccupied. It’s all for you, you know. I know you don’t. So nevermind. It’s okie. I’ve been anticipating for your big day to come (which is not very far from now) and the subsequent series of events that might follow up cos, if you agree then it’ll be a great turning point in our relationship…

Just some thoughts that came to mind: what if early humans had designed the thumbs up action to mean the middle finger in our present day context and vice versa? Hahz.. what a world it will be…

Haven’t had much productive use of my time to fill up even half an entry. That’s why it’s been left dead for such a long time. Hmm let’s recall… Was at Marcus’ place on Tuesday. S6E had our first class gathering =D or is it? Hahaz.. alright, the first ever to be that far away from home. Can you beliee? It’s at Yew Tee =X Journey there wasn’t that long after all, if you travel the right way that is. Smart me.. hahz! But I made a real fool of myself at the MRT station while waiting for the train home when I found out the shoe bag I was holding doesn’t belong to me. So poor me had to make an extra trip back there. Some bit of excercise is good I guess, after a meal that would have deemed outrageously sinful by nutritionists. Hahhh.. those times.. It was really a fun time spent with those guys especially when there’re cocksters around to liven up the spirits when it’s all dampened =D

Then on Thursday it was an outing with my cuzzies. 4 games of bowling then off to suntec. Still striving hard to master curling the heavey 13-pound (or kg?) metal ball down that oily alley. Over at the holy fountain of wealth it’s kind of a shop-till you-drop situation. Not that much on me though. But it’s certainly a big hit on my aunt’s purse, spending well over three digits worth of cash on her children.. hahz.

For the rest of the time.. what else? It’s either sleep, eat, painstaking revision, building castle wonderlands or slacking online. Not that much on the piano recently though.. amazing. Think the saying that goes ‘mian qiang shi mei you xinf fu de’ is rather true. Been trying to make myself believe that ‘wo ye hen xiang ta’ will sound very nice on that huge polished ebony instrument and I should choose that over the rest of the other pieces to play just because it’s a song from her idol. Perhpas that’s why I’m losing enthusiasm.

It’s really painful when all you could do is to stare and dream that those words would magically appear on the conversation window by themselves and hopefully a positive reply comes. Cos’ in reality, this doesn’t happen. It really doesn’t feel good to be restrained and not being trusted. What’s more, it hurts to find out that somebody who seems so important to you don’t seem keen to.. .. .. okie nevermind.. end.

I really wish to hand you that gift I’ve got you you know..

Posting my last hope on air on the __. Hope you could give the two of us a chance.. to unite in reality.. and for me to say, ‘happy birthday,’ in your ears…

This’s wad i kope from pple’s blog.
=))
haha

Total volume of music on my computer: 7.71GB? There about

The last CD i bought: Natural- The Very Best of S.E.N.S.

Song playing: Armageddon’s theme- I don’t wanna miss a thing by Aerosmith

Thirty artistes whose song(s) I listen to a lot, or that mean a lot to me:
1)Aerosmith – I don’t wanna miss a thing
2)Ocean – Liu Se Cai Hong/Gu Dan Bei Ban Qiu
3)Xin Shao Nian Ju Le Bu – Dang Ni Gy DAn Ni Hui Xiang Qi Shui
4)S.E.N.S. – almost all of it.. I mean it literally
5)Savage Garden – Santa Monica/Truly Madly Deeply
6)Barry Manilow – Mandy
7)Zhang Feng Qi – Zhi Fei Ji
8)Tension – I’ll be with you
9)The Wonders – All my only dreams
10)Elva Xia – Di Xia Tie
11)Wu Ying Liang Pin – Shen Bian
12)Bon Jovi – I’ll be there for you
13)Zhang Zhen Yue – Ai Wo Bie Zou
14)98 Degrees – I do cherish you
15)Jay Chou – An Jing/Qing Tian/Xing Qing/Yuan You Hui/Ai Zai Xi Yuan Qian/Hui Dao Guo Qu/Kai Bu Liao Kou/Gui Ji/Long Juan Feng/
16)Luo Zhi Xiang – Lian Ai Da Ren
17)Air Supply – Making love out of nothing at all/Come what may/All out of love/Two less lonely people in the world
18)Kenny G – Forever in love
19)The Eagles – Ol’55/Love will keep us alive/Syuck on you
20)David Gates – Find me (never able to get this song to be in my possession =X)
21)Stephon Bishop – It might be you
22)Chicago – You’re the inspiration/I don’t wanna live without your love
23)Flying Pickets – Only you
24)Yanni – Adagio in C minor.. and many others
25)Eric Clapton – Wonderful tonight/TEars in heaven
26)S.H.E – Ai Wo De Zi Ge
27)Stevens Shakin – Because I love you
28)Wilber Pan Wei Bo – Ai Shang Wei Lai De Ni
29)John Lennon – Woman
30)Lionel ritchie – Say you say me
Bonus tracks..lolz.. just twwwoo more pls..:
31)Black Eyed Peas – Where is the love
32)Maroon 5 – She will be loved

hahax, i tink im taking this opportunity to summarise my fav song instead. hahax.. n also intro these songs to uuu.. muhaaaa

Passing it to :whoever who reads this.. =)

If not for the sake of personalising this entry I’d have lifted the whole chunk.. don’t mind ah ^_^