It’s just me.

One evening back home from school, as I routinely turned on the com to do nothing, it failed me!! Thanks ger. Anyway, it’s fine now, or I won’t be here. Wise of me to keep a duplicate of my empire of mp3s and pics in a backup disk, or I’ll have lost it all, then I’ll be repeating history for the umpteenth time. No lah, credit should go to me dad.. =D

It must have been arranged that I should not buy the ticket to BYG, cos’ I’ll be there anyway. On photog duty. ‘m to have a basic photog training earlier that day, so I thought it wouldn’t be possible to patronise you, however much I’d wanted to. Now, it means I’ll have to rush.

Seems like, the privilege of being in such close proximity isn’t a good thing after all. I really don’t know how to go about approaching you. Even, I find myself avoiding at times. It’s the fear of rejection,I guess. I’m such a let down of myself.

And why is HOTEL ASIA still not bound for Singapore!!??… Cold turkey.

Wonder what was it that called for a celebration, but we had a delightful night at grandma’s place yesterday anyway. There was buffet. Lots of people. Why, we couldn’t have missed the essential money- involved poker card games. Just like dad, gambling doesn’t have a call on me, oh well, if not for the sake of trying to be sociable. I find it extremely hard to focus on anything except the bags of music albums in granny’s room. Bing Yan cuzzie who’s an entertainment reporter has (really very) generously left her rather large collection of promotional copies there for us, whoever wants to take. Being an album enthusiast, hahaz, of course I had a satisfying scavenge, since I looked like the only hungry vulture there. Easily over a hundred bucks worth.

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I thought I’ve contradicted myself with the last entry. Honestly, my angel and devil seems to be having a cold war right now. Seems like, I’m left to drift in my thoughts, like a particle in water.

The valentine’s gift. If there wasn’t any response… does that mean anything at all?

Strolling you to the bus stop after school…

…or simply resting in your company…

…There can be no one else.

Just the two of us.

Dearing for more personal time with you.

I hope I have the chance to…

So I was at YJ yesterday for it’s CVD. CVD? What’s that anyway? But who cares though..!

It’s been a long time since I last saw Andrew The Black and Puffy. I must have been idiot trying to teach him algebraic problem solving for an hour; Trial and Error doesn’t ring a bell…

Anyways, after that SL was so very kind to accompany me for this big disclosure. To me it seems like a mizuage, of hers and as much as mine. Almost one and a half years of anticipating.. and now that it’s here. I think this whole process from being total strangers to knowing and finally to meeting is just so fascinating.

Just hope you won’t be offended after learning about the accomplices. You’re always so unpredictable–We can never read your mind.

You can’t imagine how much fun it was being a Chingay street rocker. The audience was real enthu. Furthermore, I’ve never come in such close proximity with that many important personalities. Venerable Min Yi was there, ministers were there, the celeb hosts. And the president actually came down the float right before me. I’ve got to tell you the VIP sector was such a great experience, especially with these very hip and happening guys around. We also had the priviledge of sitting along with the crowd to enjoy the parade when it’s in procession. Of course, and there was my few seconds of publicity on the live news coverage, and that I could catch a glimpse of works behind the scene.

Chingay is simple great. I’ve never enjoyed myself more.

How I wish I could do it again…

This year’s CNY was a bit colder than usual. None of the looking forwards. Hong Baos are but nothing more than money. Home visits don’t seem to have a thrill in them anymore. Needless to say, there wasn’t the past party poppers and stuff to play with. The large gatherings, no. I guess everybody’s grown up.

Hahz. It’s not exactly that bad though; I got to see my cuzzies’ children!! It’s obvious that the Fryerson baby girl is the most adorable, with those doll-like eyes and the features of a mixed.