It’s just me.

HAHA. eh eh eh.. i’ve just set the path for my future moments ago =)
decided and will be striving towards becoming an investment banking analyst! gotta be happy for me you know.. it’s hasn’t been easy.

shit i’m lost again. like seriously, am back to square one again.. almost. but it’s over the 2nd choice now. haha.. as if i’m seriously going to miss the first, so much as to worry about an alternative. am considering BA of archi (and then of course to MA archi, which is like an unspoken must) over BBA (ACC), mean afterall i’ve always been a fan of this design and building combination thing. i believe i do have similar aspirations like tadao ando prolly had. but i guess it isn’t very realistic to dream big in this profession, esp when it deals with a subjective aspect, and i’m not too certain if i really have a flair for it, at least long and strong enough to last me till i retire, prolly, OR at the very very least, sustain through the 6 yr coursework. furthermore i have zero clue on its job prospect, like, will it be a challenge to get a job upon graduation, what’s the pay like.. and stuff. though, i like to think it must be a more fulfilling job to do than just seeing bank accounts growing fatter and fatter, that’s with a BBA. as you may have realised how the thoughts have been progressing.. erm okies whatever. i’m just uncertain if i’m prepared to live the life i’m going to choose for myself.. and what if i regret? and it’s getting very close to the deadline already.. still as undecided.

peering out..
the sky now is voraciously red..
so seemingly full of rage..
the wind..
it’s going strong beneath..
and i..
motionless by the window..
subdued..

never could understand what’s with its unearthly charm. but the taste of wind like that is simply indescribably luscious.. those invisible caresses would instantly put me in surreality.. even the usual silence of nightfall too becomes interestingly entertaining. iiiiiiii luv it. =)

swam today.
loved it, as always..
the soreness..
glass of chilled honey after that..
feeling peace..
.. every part of it =)

that song and i, we’d been on the same frequency.. those tormenting moments when my heart’d resonate. oh those times.. no longer i hope.

no regrets. every bit’s worth. and i won’t ask for more.

myshow! ‘07 wasn’t really a great one.. well it’s over anyway. tsk relief!! basically the whole of last weekend was devoted to it.. and some bit of metro shopping too. haha. fished a really good deal! ultra cool timberland tee for only 19.90. am a v happy boy now. ^^

yan suo’s out of camp. went swimming last monday together, with some others… haha army sounds like an enjoyable vacation. And there’s this gay encounter at the pool’s toilet. freaking disgusting sia. almost fisted him.

had given up on scholarship application.. then unexpectedly received keppel’s reminder to update my application form. hah. so thought i’d give it a try again. but i’m not harboring too much hopes on it; just doing it to kill some time off. am glad that ET and ms salinah are doing well in their career. really happy for them ^^

tl: .. the unit seems to be having many probs after u left..
s: haha let prcs suffer!

more or less confirmed. flying to shanghai 3rd april…

i miss 音乐日记! hah how random..

gravity

suddenly, i’m all smiles again haha =D

anyways.. met bin and merrick to swim this morning. haha great! i always feel great swimming=D realised could only meet mr tong in the evening. so bin left to bother about his other stuff and we made a trip to guitar77.. to negotiate a deal. but apparently kiang thinks i’m not credible enough to be trusted just “because ur so young, you know”. wtf rite.

the rest of the time? what an extravagance, we simply wasted it, like literally; strolled to supreme court, to the arts house, to VCH, ACM, crossed the bridge where we stood paused in the middle of the path like 2 idiots (for as long as that topic lasted, because the breeze was just too enticing..mMmM), to raffles place, to one fullerton, to esplanade bridge where we paused again to take in the breeze like a gay couple (for as long as that topic lasted, because the breeze was just too enticing..mMmM), to esplanade library, to raffles city, and finally to bugis.

finally finally.. ended our expedition at s.o.t to meet him. had our little chat at fish & co over his dinner. Haish.. ultimately, it’s either hot chicks or academics, as how he puts it la, or more correctly, how he feels i’m thinking. LOL. wrong k!! its like my brain is telling that smu is the logical choice, but heart says no, nus, or rather raffles hall/ yusof hall/ king edward vii hall is where u wanna be. hahaha kk.. what i’m trying to say is i’ll prolly need a masters in decision making to make the right choice, which, unfortunately i do not have. sooo…

then again, “The only way to ensure that you’ll be happy all your life is to always be happy in the present. Hall life at the age of 20yrs old, is something money can never buy back.”–merrick, 1988- (..lol)

yea i wouldn’t want to miss that one and only chance of 20yr old madness and fun, which will inevitably come with certain sacrifices, like grades. i don’t wish to lose my honours..!

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