It’s just me.

i really hate getting sick these days. currently down with a very heavy flu.. and i slept through my off day! argh. if i could nab the idiot who spread it to me..

saturday’s duty was the craziest.. with ps2, poker deck, unlimited supply of wings from cookhouse, vcds.. anyway that guy came back to surrender himself for awol.. because he did not collect his pink ic. like..!!! i’d do anything to trade my 11b. even then he seems rather unaffected, knowing he’s going to be charged, again. it’s either he’s so used to it already, or that he’s just got an unwavering optimism, but i feel he fits more like a member of the ultimate loser clan of society. whichever it is.. still wish him all the best. he’s a nice guy.

some instituition teaches that the individual is the most important person in his/her own life. fine, because you believe you could make a difference, so you’ll have to feed yourself well, take good care of yourself, and grow to the stage in life in order to do, and sustain that. to be the best of yourself isn’t something bad, really. but in the process, you kill, steal every benefit, eliminate obstacles, that could be your friends, among others. and you see it just as a form of sacrifice you have to make, just to be the best of yourself. just cuz you’re the most important person in your life. what’s the meaning of this living a life that’s only you? it’s cruel. i just feel it’s a dangerous move to plant the seed of egoism, that some might grow to become selfish individuals, with a stronger sense of self love than to know to be empathetic.

i’ve no idea why i’m doing this for you.

~it’s like, i’m just getting love in return.

回头望伴我走.. 你真的从来未曾幸福过吗？ 是真的吗..

我到底哪里让你受了伤..

come on. what exactly are your thoughts that i’ve never completely heard.. you left me a thousand questions unanswered.. and i now, having to bring them all to bed. do i deserve all of these.. time and again, you’ve to let me bleed. but i just love you too much to break away..

basic theory.. well, it’s very much a breeze. i’d deem trying to find out what’s going on, and trying to enrol myself with the school and getting the lesson dates a far greater challenge. i mean, seriously. so, i’ve a feeling.. i guess i’m just not a very instructions person? i kinda got a hint about that already during the psychometric test at mindef’s checkup. i’s wondering.. why’s it so hard? lol

yesterday was meant for her to redeem her share of treats from the previous.. before she leaves. ha. ok so i guess she did. and i had great fun fiddling with her new nikon too. was it d60? something like that. but we’d ended up spending most part of the day sourcing a gift for mum on her birthday. and yes we did find one. a polished, grey one from guess. just pretty. you see it’s always wise to have a girl around to look out for these stuff. ha. the leap years was a most beautiful script, but supported by a group of weak acting leads, sadly. that’s how i feel. nonetheless a moving film. i’m going to get the book man! scavenged mph, kino and borders but it seems like the title’s sold out, either that or they’ve taken it off the shelf to make way for the 2nd print, they say.

as for today, i’ve made one of the most important decisions in my life. i’m going to sit through archi’s aptitude test again. and if i get through i’m just not about to let this offer slip away. again. i’m going to drop smu’s bbm for it. i found an uncannily strong connection and enthusiasm speaking with that jap prof today at its booth. i should’ve realised it, the way my eyes tire at the sight of business references.. how so different from archi pictorials, like him. 7 years down the path isn’t something to consider lightly. but you never know until you try.

i’m in love with you not. not yet.. at least. but i do love you really.

monday’s already my basic theory test. how fast is that!? I haven’t even booked my e trial.. hur. oh well, we’ll see how my luck goes tomorrow.

Yea, and dad decided to buy a blazing red VAIO on friday while i’s trampling through the stupid amazing race when he called to ask if it’s ok. it’s such a beautiful thing, but i think i’m still going to get myself a mcbook eventually. ha.. but for now i think i’m just going to ditch that old hag for good. it’s only a matter of time, especially since all my stuff are stored in a portable hard disk.. i’m always good to go. ^.v

been a boring weekend. couldn’t go swimming with the sky threateninly murky for the most part. so i’d to content myself with twilight, playing piano.. sleeping of course.

i’ll prolly go to nus open house next week. whether it makes a difference or not, i believe i still have to give archi a fair chance.

for now, i’m simply glued to this sexy thing called vaio, just pondering, rather irrelevantly though.. if there’s a definite answer. or you might add i’m just plainly wasting my time away. ha.

with 3 SLRs and 5 lenses from uncle, you just can’t imagine. i’m completely out of this world..! now that i’ve got these vintage babies to play with.. ^^

ha.. i realise it’s been some time since i injected some life in here. so here you go:

just learned it today. isn’t it lovely!? ^^

my next number. tis’ one amazing compo.