It’s just me.

i’m just getting better and better with my new found love. ha. so much more stable on the ice now.. and i can even do crossovers! yea baby! but there’s still loads more work before i can skate backwards with ease though. it’s like learing the whole thing all over again.. and did i mention, i don’t know how but i sprained my middle finger and it swells like the sweet potato i had earlier today.

just saw huo yuan jia. found the middle was kinda intense for me.. till it makes me sick and wanna quit the show. but he’s a great reminder to a lot of values i’ve lost somehow or other along the way..

anyway here’s the song i’m currently quite into. found it, yes, where else but on the rink. ha. i know.. it’s a little aged. i’m prolly too slow to catch on with what’s happening even 10 years ago..

this one’s even more wicked. i even think it’s charmed. lady gaga and her 2 dancers are just hauntingly attractive in a freaky manner with the coreography and music. even its mv doesn’t work this magic. skip the catwalks.

and here’s the piece i’ve finally learnt how to play.. though not yet a master at it.. but i’ll keep honing my fingers till they play like a drill. yiruma’s amazing.

i don’t know, but lately i’ve noticed a bit of change in me. got a little happier i guess. prolly cus i’ve managed to find a little more meaning in life? having things to look forward to.. and realising that it isn’t necessary to do things to please others all the time. but just doing it, and doing it well, for myself… and with this, you’re the last thing on my mind now.

your words are like knives they cut and slice. merciless. oh how true these blades are blind.

it’s just a usual harmless and should i even say, expected, birthday present from a friend like any of yours. plain ordinary. nothing special..? it brings forth a friend’s-mine- dearest wishes for you. says.. you’re not forgotten, you’re loved. it’s as pure and true as it is.

like i said, would you ever reject a present from sarah when she hurls it in front of you? then why me? where’s the logic in this? i’ve already let you go. please don’t assume anything else. those moments when you texted those hurtful words, it felt totally ridiculous, effing tragic as i’s being knived alive right there.

well i guess it doesn’t really matter now. the present is for you. i don’t wish to see it anymore.

the stress is working up.. now that i’ve become much more visible, increasingly warren.. -.-
I dunno.. just really wonder if i can live up to the great expectation of everyone.. especially monster rq.

lri on 11th means i ain’t going to have a very pleasant national day.. oh well. in this organisation, nothing’s well.

just had the 2nd lesson.. and my ankles are screaming with abresions now! hah but the feeling on ice has never been less than overwhelmingly beautiful. i can see the improvement myself.. it’s almost escetic. my blue ribbon’s already on its way here and i just can’t wait. can’t wait too.. till the day when i’ll be doing the spins, and stealing the light like the pros do. joe tried forcing in loads more skills into me this time.. which means i gotta train real hard man for my goal. it isn’t really very far.. =)

that lass we saw at the rink.. and now i know how it feels to have my breath taken away..

oh by the way, just wanna say, Icy Soya Milk with Pearl worths all of $1.80 and more! very very good stuff. =D haha.

tiger trail prep almost literally sucked life out of us..
din really get any decent rest till 4pm today.
oh man, how i love my bed! T.T
.. though it’s been kinda rough covering all the shit work and staying up all nite
think we had quite a lot of fun still amid the misery
esp at the helium party.. rofl!
one lesson i’ve learnt
is never to even close ur eyes for a little while when you’ve crazy people around you
.. thanks for sum idiots who tied a bundle of helium balloons on me while i’s asleep
what if i float away!?

some random thot: they say there’s never right or wrong; it’s just a matter of opinion. yet, it’s all so easy to fall into a world of deception one wouldn’t even realise.. then how reliable is personal belief for one to even believe in oneself when sometimes we’ve already fallen prey to our very own self..?

4/6 drinking club. ha..

perhaps all this shouldn’t have.