It’s just me.

why is it that every single one of them has to act like a useless asshole who refuses to use his brain (or button, or whatever, i mean, if they ever possess one such piece of thinking meat that is actually significant enough in size to be worth mentioning, which i strongly reckon would have just turned out to be a sad uninvited growth in their goddamn coconut because they simply do not grow brains in there as a matter of fact) to think, and would rather not choose anything else over his dick. with all due respect, i really do appreciate its kind for having such admirable level of resilience to defend the dignity of this supposedly stronger but only to be rightfully challenged other half of this particular constitution of god’s greatest creation that they belong such that they carry their dicks on the head, pride and patriotism above all, for all of us. now if that’s a prerequisite to become a regular, which brings about a highly justifiable hypothesis because, you see, it’s too true to be fake. it’s an inconvenient truth we’ve been refusing in denial, well, not like there’s anything you and i can do about it.

because i’ve been invited to sign 3. if you get what i mean. n for the stupidest reason.

really..
when sometimes things just keep going right,
you simply got to believe

i’s supposed to meet W yesterday. and i’d plans to check out some dslr models after that. but the couch won me over somehow and i’s watching dvd instead. so we met today, and the price of 450D dropped 200 bucks, from yesterday! see what i mean when luck comes shining over you. i hope it never leaves. yea i’m officially owning my very own DSLR from now!

but ridiculous things do happen too.
like how i forgot i already had lunch.
then i ate again.

so the dvd that saved me some cash, turns out, is Be With Me by Eric Khoo. It’s one of those most beautiful films around. i’s moved to tears at the very end. and i can’t understand why it’s only on the silver screens for only 2 pathetic weeks in 2005, quoting from a source. no sense. at least it’s better than kite runner showing some ass fucking that made me so sick. haha…

it’s ridiculous how ur still here.
like it’s almost impossible to shake off.
i don’t want you here anymore.
but you stay anyway.
ironic as it is.

prolly takes time to fill the cravices here and there..
knock up the dents..
totally paint the stains over..
and then things will come to light
that it was just ridiculous how it even got to start
beautiful as it was
when i knew i didn’t have to be alone
because you’d always be there

now that you’ve decided to run away
there’s no point chasing cuz u’ll never stay

yea
it was crazy when it was all about you
now i just appreciate those memories..
thankful for the lessons..
i’ll be awake soon

I’m really appreciative that i finally got that tag to run somehow. amazing things like this happen and they just make believing in life so much easier. ha.. i think i also did well enough to be eligible for the medal!? it was obviously my best run ever. the refreshing scenery just kept me going and going till the end. i wasn’t really thinking much throughout the journey though, but, i thot i’ve managed to handle matters within a little better..? it’s a route to self discovery.. cliched, but, yea. i like it that i’m willing to constantly set new challenges for myself and would always persevere through all the way. i think this’s the way it should be. well.. next up, it’ll be the stan chart race. gonna do it..!

meanwhile, though, dad has decided that we shouldn’t visit korea this year.. reckons it’s not that beautiful after all.. and since we’ve alr been there.. nvm, so I’ve already set my sights on austria and prague. but it’s 17hrs of flight! our butts’re going to smoke.. i dunno.. sounds like a good place to go? like i’s telling sis that if we were to go japan again, then we’ll have 3 identical chops (and stickers) on our little red books already please! -.

the first thing i wanna say is a big thank you to everyone who’s sent me their very sincere and warm birthday wishes. much much appreciated! and of cus, the gifts too. =) thanks sis for that shirt. don’t worry yea i’ll wear it.. somehow it’s really a big surprise to have this many people remembering my birthday. quite unexpected really. n to a certain extent i feel guilty too, cus i’ve never really made the effort to do that for my buddies n dearies out there. i promise to change! =)

things’ve been going extremely fine these days. so fine it feels a little surreal. you see we got an A grade for audit, i’m given a birthday off tomorrow, dad’s decided to cosponsor my dslr, and i’d cruised through the final theory swiftly to a pass. of cus and there’re still the very positive progress in piano and ice skating to up my happiness level. n finally, a friend who’s able to return in time to celebrate with me. thank you for your company today, and the gift. i’d a great time, with the play, the sharing, everything. hope u enjoyed urself just as much? =)

when you wrote it there, happy birthday, i can’t feel it. when you said sorry, i seriously doubt if you really mean it. n when you smile, it’s so fake it shows. i’d appreciate if you hadn’t done it at all. i don’t know what’s wrong with you. but do i wanna care?

it’s national day! n it’s the first national day that i’m not at home, not catching even a second of the parade. not even on tv. yea.. talking about beating traditions. instead we had a slightly different kinda celebration, quite coneniently, also for the occasion that falls on next sunday. 17th august. no it’s not indonesia’s birthday, though it is, but.. well.

so here we were, at Huang Jia.. appreciating these pretty starters..

there, amid the brilliant ambience and excellent food, we came up with the idea of going korea this holiday.. with dad wanting to stay in jeju for a week??? and then i’ll be back just in time for the 42 point something km walk.jog.run.crawl. that’s like, prolly after a week of excessive feeding..

after that i’s off to the rink with my skates:

yes i’ve finally gotten them! since last week! they’re just gorgeous! =D

and yes i received the mail from amy again at long last..

you know i’ve been waiting for it since like, what, 30 days ago? looking back at those disappointing friday nites when i got home.. ha. but 3 months is just–poom!– over like that. she’ll be returning this week. real glad she’s all safe n well. and yup, cya very soon. =D

made a new friend at the pool today. he’s over 30, a doc at a polyclinic. i really hope he’s not gay. lol. am i getting a little too paranoid? thing is, i can’t stand homos. they’re fine alone by themselves. but don’t come anywhere near. i’m not discriminating you gotta know, just that those curvy minded but whom act friendly and try to know you.. who knows what they’re up to? it’s the same as how, deep down, everyone dislikes closet perverts. i’m just feeling unsafe.. ha. but i’m thinking.. or maybe it’s just about me, sort of suffering from some kinda serious disorder, something like err.. new-friend-rejection-syndrome?

lol.. anyway, life ahead seems good. lri will never be mentioned ever again in my life in a matter of days. n my free time is totally devoted to swimming, ice skating, piano-ing, gossip girl-ing.