It’s just me.

happy 牛 yr! so cliched!

the lunar new yr started like any other since 20 years ago. its really quite sad to know that i’ve lived this long to realise that while the yearly ritual remained somewhat constant, time’s changed, really. i don’t know. i just feel it’s a pretty wise revelation and its gonna stop here.

i’ve gotten another understudy lately, which makes me the upperstudy of 3. seriously. sometimes i can’t help but be so proud of myself. the spotcheck and iso recert went pretty alright. that’s why i got off this whole week. haha rq sir he just made my day man yea he did..

y’know after the iso, we were slacking in office and andrew came dashing in with his amazing discovery of the best paper plane in the world in hand. and the next thing i know, i’s folding one of the return vouchers into one too. and then the next moment, rq was standing beside us with a strange face. can you picture, a couple of soldiers throwing paper planes in the backyard, and then there were these 2 guards strolling by. hah.. damn hilarious! well, this is army. life is simple. hah.. it felt great, like i’s a child once again.

there’s something i really i don’t get it, look i’ve been doing so well in ns, been through this many audits with good grades, ‘m getting best soldier on thursday, gonna promote next month.. so what’s wrong with me? what’s with me about this whole messed up feeling man. fked..

i wish there’s really a lacuna inc around. i wish that part of my story could just be robbed. n i wish life could have been more perfect. i wish.