It’s just me.

having got home from work, i jogged, as usual. but it’s a little different this evening.. cuz it was raining. hah, haven’t had another chance to do that in a long while and i kinda miss being in the rain. reminds me of the life run at east coast ages back. i’m beginning to love pounding the streets, increasingly. Like, it’s almost become an addiction, something that i have to do. really, nothing quite feels like coming back from a good workout, and enjoy a hot shower and a hearty healthy meal after that.

..nights seem to pass quicker that way. then it’s time for bed again.

but i still feel empty.

i can rarely be moved these days. but this one never fails to do it every time i listen to it.  it’s his own rendition. gasps. i’m in total admiration. it’s the most well written version i’ve ever come across. also the most well played. and the best thing? score’s provided =)

being in a relationship is tiresome. it’s commitment. loss of freedom. an obligation. forever a guessing game. granted, i don’t know love. so i’m better off not getting involved for now. hah..

we were celebrating khai’s birthday last night at bishan, and i’d actually hollanded to toa payoh from work.. haha. embarrasing moments aside, it was quite a sensation to see those people at last, for the first time since i left. like, there was a rage of emotions, cus i really miss them! they all looked so different in the new green shit. lmao. i’m just glad i don’t have to be a part of it, which ironically reminds me of some particular article. ho ho..

if there’s one lesson i’ve learnt from the roller coaster ride in qm office, it’s to learn not to say i don’t know. i feel that it is a personal responsibility that is expected upon taking over a role to know what’s going on, or otherwise, attempt to get a picture of the story at least, before giving a reply. it’s only professional.

有一个人对着一个才刚认识不久的人，问道，“你快乐吗？如果你不快乐的话，那就是我的责任了。”

虽然只是随口的一句话，但就是应为它完全是发自内心的感言，让我深深体会到原来一个人活着的意义是可以如此无我与单纯。我觉得懂得放下自我是一种福，也是很不容易领悟到的智慧。也许，尝试用心去对待周昭的人事物，多以别人为中心，生活也能过得更快了一些些。。你说是吗？

why is it so hard to pass the damn driving test! why do all ah bu neh nehs i meet have to be the same moronic kind? if you don’t want to open your eyes and look, then don’t blame me for not being wayang enough.

i don’t know what’s so cool about driving, it’s not even environmentally friendly. i really prefer buses and trains and above all being a pedestrain. at least you’ll always have the right of way. lol.. no it’s just that i really don’t fancy getting behind the wheel..

frankly, what’s the issue with people repeatedly glancing at me? but it just fuels the impulse for me to drive my fist in their faces sometimes. i myself have no idea why i get so agitated with people’s eyes.. tsk, we should make love! not war

.. i can’t believe an old man just called me uncle.

i’d broken into a smile. then i realise i had the mask on. lol.

Feels good to be home.. after work! work’s so physically abusive.. lol. that’s an exaggeration. that’s cuz i haven’t really worked for a very long while! at least it beats slacking around.. got totally no discipline to guai guai sit down and execute the list of things-to-do without any pushing. haha, i’m such a lazy ass! -.- what to do? anws, gotta thank KK for the recommendation! a relief that boss isn’t anything like monster rq

by the way, i’d so much idle brain cells while at work that i started taking on serious castle projects. hurhur.. k, not funny. but i thot it was really interesting how there was a stark contrast between the temp and perm staff there. feels as if time really moulds things and people in place. like, can you imagine how ms mercia was like when she first started work at the office, with that ‘ok, so what now’ look? it just feels like, over time, people set themselves into autodrive. they start to go about their job like a routine, as if doing it for the sake of working.. as if it isn’t. to me, that’s life in perfect misery! it’s so stale i can smell it. now this i’m not exaggerating. i hope i won’t end up like that in my career mann. architecture will be fun!

back in qm, they had their commercial stock take today, but without me around this time. haha. total relief! it’s quite sad to know that the office guys got really scared over a drama and they couldn’t get me on the phone because reception at the work place was really bad. ha ha ha.. can’t believe i’m in fact rejoicing over this. but really, it’s not hard to imagine! i guess things should turn out fine. since i’ve attained nirvana, i’ll bless them! those suffering souls down there.. hurhur. !! since when have i gotten so lame.. ..

can’t get enough of this cute song!

truth be told, i’ve an almost obsessive fascination for all things and everything cutesy. really! i’s so embarassed to turn up at the shop front of the shop i’ve been wishing to visit only to realise that it’s a feminist place! but I just had to check out the adorble dolls there. wth, i think i’m so gay! tsk.. but is it a crime! it’s not a shame to my gender’s pride either! i’m proud to be 100% hetero ok. but really, this embarassing fetish can get a bit in the way.. =( what if my future girl realises i sleep in a bed full of softies? hahaha.. of cus i don’t. only a dog and a little lamb to keep me company ^^