It’s just me.

i don’t like saying this cuz it’s such a cliche to say it, but, how time flies really! i’ve worked at imh for 2 months already. and in the 2 months i’ve dropped 7 kilos no less. i didn’t really believe anybody who commented that i’ve grown thinner (not that many anyway) until i got on the machine yesterday! mixed emotions, on the moment of truth. not sure if i should be happy with it or what, but i hadn’t done it to lose weight! maybe i should lax my self imposed regime a little.

the last day of work didn’t quite feel like the last. life went on around me, and somehow i’s pushed along with it. just, perhaps the constant reminder in the words of many others seemed to celebrate the occasion for me. but then that didn’t serve to do much cus i soon grew numb hearing it. btw, mdm wong is such a sentimental lady.. aww. with the deepest  appreciation, i’ve to thank her for the lunch, chocos and definitely for taking care of me all those while =D ..seems like, nobody could ever be fortunate enough to have a superior who’s nice enough. but besides that i’ve had a pleasant time working at mro. do i have to mention names? ah kong, mas, auntie annie, jasmine, leexian, KK, xiangru, lena, bryan. they’re the people who made it a brief but very delightful chapter

late nite prata with ZY yesterday. it was timely for a catch up, cuz he almost forgot how nice it was to be chatting with me! lols. i miss the days when we could share endlessly, ignorant of the presence of time. there’s no real stress around, no real worries to be bothered with. we were stuck in AMQ for good, but made the best of it. yet happy times have to be that shortlived. but it’s just absurd to think of living in these brief moments forever. life moves on. and notice how, certain people tend to be associated with a particular period in your life? i really wish they’ll move on beyond that.

“perhaps the secret is in it being a memory”..

i’m never a tech geek. so the sensation is pretty surreal, knowing that i now own an ipod touch. but it’s really cool stuff! aha. my mac should also be here soon

“the best things in life come for free.. that sometimes we just don’t know how much they’re worth.”

i’ve been glancing up at the clock lately, and it showed 11:11. they say somebody’s prolly thinking of you whenever this happens. hah, that’d be nice =)

yesterday was admission day. wow.. and i finally got a glimpse of how small the faculty is. you see, the tiniest lec theatre could even be too large to accommodate all of us. hahh. so.. “architecture is not building. buildings are ugly, but architecture isn’t. architecture is beautiful. it’s poetics.”

i’ve worked so hard to kill those tummy fats. i’m not gonna ruin my body again with temptations. no, evil stuff, they shouldn’t even qualify as temptations. today, i’m proud to say i’d refused a packet of fries. this may sound like the most retarded thing to do on earth, but i actually ordered a la carte at mac. for the first time. in my life. just to avoid salt-coated fried mashed potato sticks infused with preservatives. waddd an achievement. it’s a milestone boy!

the freshmen guide arrived a few days ago. well i read it of cus, and then all of a sudden i felt terribly stressed out. mean, the thought of schooling had always been there. i would even say i’ve been anticipating the first day of uni life to commence more than anything. but now i finally realise the difference between now and then is that, then was never very near from now.

staring down at the content in the fresmen’s guide, the influx of enrolment details and the sheer thought of executing them frightened me, seriously. wonder if this is the cause of it, but the other day while twanging at the toilet, i discovered (to my horror) a new strand of white hair i never knew exists.

s.o.s. please. i’m so not ready for school.

missed the first bus to work this morning. ok, that’s fine. then i boarded the next one, and then my ez-link refused to make the damn thing flash green! so it’d already been starved to death.. ran totally dry on credit. urgh.. and i only had a single 5 dollar note and zero coins with me then. that’s when my superhero girl came to the rescue. lols. she didn’t exactly have 5 bucks worth of coins to trade. instead she simply handed me the amount i needed and told me that i didn’t have to repay her, insistently and very nicely, with a smile. of all the passengers on board whom i approached, she’s the one i didn’t.. yeah, was i touched. i feel so indebted to her kindness now. 1.60 might not be much, but i’m sure it’s enough for her to buy a meal in school. wish i’d gotten her contact, then i’d be able to return her the cash..

if what the tarot cards suggest is true.. i shouldn’t even have asked that question in the first place. i’m such a moron.

it’s been a long while since i last met WX when we were still in ns then. hah. so nice to see him again. but all that constant reference to a year or two back made me feel like i’m an old man! as if we’ve lived through some rough turbulent times, and we would only look back in time now, reminiscing those moments past like an old veteran. lol. he’s one of those friends that is really special to me. simple. sincere. though a bit gay.. haha. it seems to him that there isn’t a need for big dreams and ambitions whatsoever. just, going by with little expectations, be it for self or for others and try to happy with the way it is. that’s a very positive, reassuring influence. 

compared to WX, A’s all about chasing lofty dreams. y’know, like globalise vs localise. i just wonder if she realises how much she’ll have to compensate for the gigantic carbon footprint she’s left behind from all that jet setting. haha. but really, she’s like this tremendous living inspiration for me. it’s always so easy to just conceptualise or give verbal promises. then i’d find myself trying to evade from them when it’s time to take that first step. it’s such a bad habit to have. i don’t know, it’s prolly out of fear? insecurity?.. but with the moleskine beijing, there’s no backing out now. haa..

been trying to find out it’s title for damn long already!

i’ve been turning into a zombie lately the very moment i breathed in the casenote-y air of office. sigh.. work. after J’s gone, there seems nothing nice at all to look forward to. how can she abandon me!! T.T..

a text from australia came quite unexpected.. sure was a pleasant surprise. haha. glad that she’s having fun. on this other side of the world, i’ve been preparing for a solitary trip to beijing. i’m quite sure it won’t be a lonesome one